Next evening I sat naked on the stool in the room after carefully locked the door. I had showered and smelled good as a woman. Of course I wanted to be at my best, but didn’t know really how to do.



With my eyes closed I tried to think on the point in my stomach (solar plexus) and tried to imagine the blue color over my crown.



It didn’t even felt ridiculous when I in my naked loneliness asked out in the room:



“Are you’re here, Sir?”



It was quiet. No answer and I kept thinking of the imaginary hole opening up over my crown, as I’ve learned at the course.



“ALICE”



“Yes, Sir. It’s nice that you are here!”



It was the same voice as before. I heard it in the room, but could not figure out from were. Perhaps it was so that my brain was so locked to my fact that it came from a spirit that it possible not could come from a distinct place in the room.



“Yes, ALICE!”



“Can you help me with an advice, dear spirit leader, Sir?”



I didn’t know how to address this spirit phenomenon, perhaps spirit notability, but I felt a great respect. Like an elevated sensuous respect. And it felt so unreal.



“First thing. Where you sleep there is negative forces and pouring. I suggest that you move your bed to the opposite wall. And you will sleep much better.”



“Thank you Sir for your advice. Shall I move it now?”



“Do so. Then go back to your stool.”



I rose and went over to my bed. From where I got my strength I don’t know, but I took hold of the end of the bedstead and pulled the whole bed over to the other wall. I would remake the bed later, so I got my pillow close to the wall.



Then I returned to my stool.



“It is true Sir, that I have slept badly since I moved in here and I thought I was because of my missing of Halle. I hope it will be better now. Thank you for your advice, dear Sir.”



“I will help you gladly, that is why I’m here. I have also noticed that your physical fitness needs to be adjusted. That is why I suggest that you do a little exercise in the morning, before you take a shower and get dressed. Set your alarm clock half an hour earlier.

It is good for your heart.



Funny! I had thought of some exercise in the morning, to stretch out my body, but I had not really found the start switch.



Now I would do it. Good for my heart. So good than!



I must know how to address a spirit leader.



“Sir. How should I address you?”



“You shall address me exactly as you feel in your heart that you should.”



I thought that MASTER was the word that I used when Halle and I played our games and it felt so natural. Perhaps that was what my spirit leader meant, As I felt in my heart! Perhaps the word Master was enough. Yes, it had to be Master!



“Please Master. Can you see if there is any post for me? I’m unemployed for a time now and I start to run out of money since I left Halle. Everything cost. I would hate to crawl back to him again. I don’t mind him being dominant but I hate his jealousy and it’s growing, as you know. I know that it is short of employments, but in any case, Sir.”



I noticed that I was chattering, as I do when I’m highly-strung. I want to say everything at the same time and my thoughts just streams out of my mouth.



“I know that you left Halle and that is a good decision. There is another man in your future and he is very close to you. You shall obey him in love. Yes, there’s a work for you. On the road from here to Halle there’s a big radio-shop. You shall go in there and ask them for work. There you will become employed at the cash-desk. Then you will also get close to the man of your heart.

Remember that you will get high pleasure out of it, if you shall obey him in love”



He said.



So he knew that I liked to obey a man. Now he saw a work for me. To be unemployed had been my big problem since I left Halle and I didn’t want to crawl back to him on the reason of money. It felt so whorish. Not that he would mind. He said: You will soon crawl back me and that would be crawling naked over my doorsill.”



I knew exactly what he meant that I should crawl naked in to his flat to show my complete defeat. And I know that all his revenge for leaving him should hit my pour bottom in strike after strike. And after that he would be a cruel Master, having me at his beck and call and thrown at his mercy.



My God, how humiliating! But also nice. I would have no where to turn, just to obey. Funny, just now it didn’t tempt me. A man in the future for me?

Perhaps a new Master, that I would obey in complete trust and love.



“Thank you very much, Master!”



“I will leave you now. If you need me just do as you have done now.”



I remembered. I should sit on my stool, relax and call for him.



Naked? Was that a must?

No it had not been a demand from him. I liked to be naked in my flat. Pooh, it doesn’t matter. If I’m in nude, as now, it is not wrong anyway.



“Do as you have done”



I’ve always got a hard and troubled feeling in my chest when I didn’t know what was right or wrong. To get clear and distinct orders of what to do was always so nice and secured. All anxiety disappears and I can just obey.



I remember saying to Halle: Just tell me what to do and I will switch off my brain and do it. It is so easy life for me.”



Now I was in many more steps convinced of my experiences and that there was no other explanation. If there was no other explanation, there was not reason to search for one.



Beside of that you must show great respect for those high phenomena.



So suddenly a new thought stroke me. When I walked around in the flat He could see me. I must not think that way. He had surely no sexual connection to human sexuality. It was probably only a natural way of view.



I liked to think of nudity as a natural thing. Natural!

The nature showed us what’s natural and that is natural.



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